Friday, July 30, 2010
The reality is that having more than the "normal" amount of children is special to begin with, but to have four children all the same gender is really special and different and I liked it. Come December, I won't be part of that club anymore. I am sure I'll be ready for the little girl that will join our family, but a part of me will feel bittersweet to leave this club I've been fortunate to be a part of for the last several years.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Let's just get the rude questions out of the way that even some of my best friends have asked. Mainly, "how did you get Lance to agree to another baby?" What I want to say is either I stopped taking the pill or I cut a hole in the condom, except pretty much everyone knows we practice NFP so that couldn't be the case. So, yes everybody, Lance is on board with the baby. How are you going to afford five kids? Don't worry people we're not asking for your help. We've got it under control. And yes, there is enough love in our hearts and home for another baby. Will this change things, most definitely. Will I be taking a huge family vacation every year? Not unless 1560 gives us a huge raise or Lance gets the national recognition he deserves. Were you trying for a girl? No, we weren't. To be clear, Lance wants a girl, while I am leaning towards another boy. But mainly we just want a baby. And not to be the center of everyone's jokes about having so many kids because, really, five kids isn't that many and this is our life and family.
Tomorrow I will be exactly 18 weeks pregnant. Today we had an ultrasound, and it appears I'm in for an even bigger change than I anticipated. We're having a girl! God help me. One day she will read this and know I was leaning towards a boy, and she will never let me forget it. But that is fine. I'm sure this will be least of my problems with a girl. I'm excited thinking about a perfect Christmas this year with a baby girl in a smocked outfit. The kind of outfits that Lance has never let me buy before now. Lance, my love, I have saved you money on clothing until now, but all bets are off. I want smocked, Janie and Jack and boutique clothes for your little girl. You have been warned.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Lance came home and saw the almost empty gallon of milk on the counter and asked why I hadn't poured it down the drain yet. I am taking the almost empty gallon back to the store for a refund. Lance is horrified. He keeps telling me how we are almost done with the milk, but I don't care. I had to pour out three cups this morning, plus the milk from my cereal. PLUS, this is the second time this is happened in two weeks. I won't put up with it. I can promise that I will get my refund on this milk. And I will spend my $3.50 how I choose.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Saturday, July 24, 2010
He has been taking swim lessons since mid-September and in my opinion is pretty decent. The swim teacher disagrees. He is on his ass like BH is training for the three year old Olympics. We had a bad week at the beginning of the summer, but seemed to really improve after that one week. This week he has been bending his knees way too much when he kicks, a new habit, and the teacher is trying to make him stop. Here is the problem: you tell BH to do something, you literally have to ask him three to four times before he responds. Do I like it? Not one bit. It usually results in raised voices, times outs and sometimes crying on his part. Clearly swim coach wasn't in the mood for that this week so Baby Hulk wasn't allowed to go on the slide and tower at the end of class on Thursday. Then he started wailing. There had already been some questionable moves at his Wednesday class so I was livid to see my baby crying.
I threw the other kids in the car so I could rescue the BH from his teacher, then proceeded to let him know how pissed I was. I didn't yell or anything, but I did stop him from starting his next class on time and lecture him on my child. He thinks the BH can do the work and isn't trying. I was ready to move him to another class or stop lessons for a bit, but BH doesn't want to change teachers. And this kid will tell you the truth. He has no problems telling us which babysitters he likes and doesn't like.
I talked to Lance who reminded me how long it takes for us to get BH to clean up or look for his toys. He wasn't mad about BH not getting to go down the slide. He doesn't want someone badgering our kid, but he doesn't mind a reasonable consequence. And quite frankly, BH cries quite a bit so how was this any different besides someone else making him cry.
I was so upset that I didn't realize what had made me so mad about the entire incident. It was the singling out in front of others. They used to do that shit to Squirt in elementary school during lunch. He has ADHD and wasn't able to control some of his behavior so he was always in trouble. Plus, he had a teacher I hated who always had him sitting at a table by himself. Once my mom went for grandparents day, and they had to sit alone to eat lunch. BUT that still didn't count for his lunch detention.
I hate the kind of shit that only serves to make a kid feel like a loser in front of other kids. Some parents don't care about that stuff and some kids aren't affected by it. I do. I have no problem (mostly) with anyone giving a reasonable consequence to my kids, but this I won't allow. My kids may drive me batty at times, and I am so very far from being the mother they deserve, BUT, I can promise that I will never allow someone to eff with them. EVER.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Chelsea came over this afternoon bearing sunflowers for me! The family went to Sushi, where the boys mostly behaved. It was fun visiting and discussing her current dating situation. It's pretty cute watching the boys with her and Kobra actually told her he loved her and gave her a hug.
Monday, July 19, 2010
Outside my window...it's overcast. I hope the sun comes out soon.
I am wearing...my workout clothes. I have yet to make it to the gym. I have already missed two chances at class today. Here's hoping I can get there for the evening classes!
I am so excited...about my upcoming trips. Paul and Brian have taken the lead on our trip, and our plans sound great, especially the fire every night so we can just talk together. Goose decided he would rather return to a hotel than have a birthday party, so we're heading to La Cantera to celebrate his birthday (again) on my birthday!
I so love...watching my boys play together. This summer has been great. Despite not taking a big vacation, the heavy rains, and the eye problem, the boys have had a great summer. There have been fights, but there has been more love than anything else. After March Madness, they have all been into basketball, and now with World Cup they got back into soccer. They are outside almost daily playing a game.
I can't wait...until Sunday night. MAD MEN returns. I have been watching reruns and am so psyched about this next season.
I am praying for...my babies and for a great last month before school starts.
From the kitchen...hmmm....no plans yet except I want chicken Parmesan for my home cooked birthday meal. I need some light ideas since I am going to lunch tomorrow and we'll be eating out most of the weekend. Cookies also sound really good for the road trip.
On keeping home...I am so ready for another deep clean. I still can't figure out how to organize all the learning toys. Maybe once the kids return to school, I can figure out a new system.
I am trying...really hard to stay away from Amazon this week. I have money for my birthday already coming in, but I need new bookshelves. There are at least five new books the boys need though.
One of my favorite things...my birthday. Yes, even at almost 40, I still love my birthday. It is my special day. Mine all mine. I still expect calls, presents and cake. And always remember those who forget.
Noticing that...I always have a black rubber band around my wrist. Not really the look I am going for.
Living the liturgical year at home...we just haven't been able to get Super Saints going this summer. I finally spoke with a friend and we have plans for two sessions before school starts, then a kickoff for the school year. Personally, I think that's how it should be, but the boys have really missed their friends. We have been studying the different saints at home though and the boys continue to amaze me.
A few plans for the rest of the week...lunch with Marivi, Sushi with Chelsea (are you available?), La Cantera and celebrate the BIG 40!
A picture thought I am sharing...
Thursday, July 15, 2010
I had to take Kobra to the doctor. I was so happy to be alone with him because I usually have at least two extra kids along for any doctor visit. We were even on time, getting in the elevator with four minutes to spare. On time, not early. I pushed number 3, the other couple pushed 4 and we were off. For a much different ride than I expected. We went up and down without stopping. I realized pretty fast what was happening and immediately my heart started racing. I checked out my cell phone which had no service and then pushed the alarm button nonstop for the next four minutes. I totally lost it. I had us stuck in an elevator for several hours with nobody noticing. (Because despite a sign that said we would be contacted in the event the alarm was set off, nobody ever spoke to us.) Finally, the damn elevator opened on the basement level. The other couple went to another elevator while I found the stairs and walked my 28 pound baby up what was now four flights of stairs. And the thing is nobody cared at all when I told them their elevator was whacked out.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Outside my window...it's dark and peaceful. I'm ready for bed. It's been a long weekend and we've got lots of errands tomorrow.
I am wearing...my pj's.
I am listening to...the Dandy Warhols, thinking I wish I could see them in concert, then feeling really silly because we just saw them last year!
I am thankful for...my two birthday boys. We had a great time celebrating their birthdays this weekend with best friends on Friday and my parents and brother on Saturday. Sunday it was just family, my favorite.
I am grateful for...my insurance. Despite how shitty it is, I don't know what I would have done the past two weeks without it. I feel so bad for people who don't have the same options I have. Since June 27, I have spent $350 on doctors and medicine for Goose. During this time I also spent another $100 on me and Squirt. And...tomorrow, we have two yearly visits for the birthday boys and one more dermatology appointment for Kobra, so another $100. Then Squirt has a cranial scan (which I was just informed should cost $688) and an allergy shot to finish out the week. And this is why I won't be having a birthday party for myself. But hey, at least, my kids get to see a doctor while others don't. Because you know, health care shouldn't be a basic human right.
I am thinking...of creating new house rules for myself. No more phone time or computer time when the kids are around. Except the morning call with Marivi and a quick email check while I down my cereal, there is no way I can handle starting my day without that call! I love the phone, but I've been pretty good about not talking as much as I would like when the kids are around. I have to think more on this.
Around the house...there are new toys to play with and old ones to donate. I went through toys again on Saturday and barely made a dent. I am trying to reorganize closets, games, books, learning tools, early readers, etc. I am really lost on how I want to organize everything.
From the kitchen...no more sweets! Do sugar free popsicles count? I haven't planned my menu for this week, so hopefully that won't hurt me.
One of my favorite things...being a mom and remembering the days my children were born. What a special gift this is; I don't want to waste one second I have with them.
A few plans for the rest of the week...besides the doctor visits and a return to swim lessons after a week off, we have nothing else planned. I want to take it easy.
A picture thought I am sharing...new pj's!
Sunday, July 11, 2010
At two years old, you already have your own opinion about everything. And you are quite vocal about it. You will not be told what to do, when to smile or be nice. You can be more than a little demanding at feeding time. I call it feeding time because that is how you act. You want your food and Lord help anyone who makes you wait or who won't share with you. You are the same way with books, often throwing them at us if we don't read fast enough or enough books to you.
A year ago, you were still crawling and now you are all over everything. Climbing on tables, walking into the pool without anyone, and basically, doing whatever you want. I love how you follow your brothers these days. It is so cute how you want to play with them all the time and sad that there are times when they close the door on you. You love your biggest brother and have become the third brother's boy in this house.
But let's be clear, you are still a momma's boy through and through. And I love it. I love the smile on your face when you see me, I love when you come running to tattle on someone for hitting you and I love listening to you talk. My favorite words from you are "thank you" and "sorry". Best of all, I love holding you in my arms.
This year starts the year of you taking over as cutest in the house, because let's face it, two to four is where it's at as far as Dad and I are concerned. I can't wait to live through this next phase with you and experience the wonder of being two again through your eyes. I love you with all my heart my sweet little boy. Happy Birthday! May God Bless you always. Saint Benedict, pray for my baby boy today and always!
Thursday, July 8, 2010
What a year five has been for you. Of course, the biggest thing to happen this year was going to public school. And what a success you were. Even though you had never been to daycare beyond the gym, preschool or day camp, you shined at school. And how I missed you. There wasn't a day that passed that I didn't want you home with me, learning with me, reading with me. And it wasn't just me that missed you. Your baby brothers wanted you around as well which is why we had lunch together so often. I am already getting manic thinking about you returning to school.
People always laugh at me because I never sent you to preschool and you're not in camps all summer long. I just wonder how they can stand to be separated from their kids willingly in the summer. Nothing has made me smile more than watching you play with the Baby Hulk lately. Despite being stuck inside due to illness and rain, you two have had a blast and without the TV, I might add! While it's not always fun and games, I love the bond I see you two developing and hope you will always have his back the way he has your back.
Five marked the year that you first cried over a sporting event. You have no idea how proud that made both me and your father. I can't wait to see how you are during football season!
At five, you still LOVE to read. When we go to bookstores, I catch you reading two books at a time. You love story time regardless of what I'm reading. I have enjoyed going through all the Magic Tree House books this year and am excited to find a new series to read together.
Your love for Super Saints is what keeps me going when I want to call it quits. We have learned so much together through Super Saints, and I hate the look on your face when we've had to cancel our meetings. I hope you always love the Saints the way you do now and look to them for inspiration and intercession.
Goose, you are my baby, the child that is most like me. I'm not sure that is a good thing, but it does make me understand you better than any child in this house. You have made me happier than I thought possible. The fact that you kept every lunch note all year long is the sweetest thing in the world and possibly a little OCD. Your love for Snoopy has not waivered this year, and I hate the thought that one day you won't care where he is. For now, I will enjoy that you throw a fit if he gets left behind. I will always be here for you. I love you more than you can ever know. May God continue to bless you and keep you safe. Happy Birthday, my dear, sweet, six-year old boy.
I love how she thinks keeping two corpses in her home is just fine.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Goose: "You! And TV is my second best thing."
WHAT??? I guess I should be happy that I came in first over TV. It amazes me the hold television can have over people. Here is a kid who wasn't allowed to watch television until he turned three years old, and he was only allowed one 30 minute show at the time. Even now, he can only watch for an hour per day.
After careful consideration and a reminder from Aunt Stacy, Goose has amended his statement. TV is third, Snoopy is second. I am safe for now.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Outside my window...it's dark and quiet. Any second I should hear fireworks. I stayed home with the baby and let Lance take the other three boys. Part of me is bummed, then I remember the downpours we've had all week and am happy not to be in soggy, wet grass.
I am listening to...Liz Phair. Part of me wants to just enjoy the silence that I haven't had all day, but Liz won out.
I am thankful...that Goose's eye is finally on the mend. He actually took his glasses off for most of the day. He is full of energy and was quite the spazz today. We created this flag today in honor of the 4th. I realize it's not quite accurate, but our platter wasn't big enough to make it perfect.
I am wondering...if I should have the birthday party I have been planning for myself. It's just girlfriends at the house, nothing big like I did for Lance's birthday. It's a great idea, I think, but here's the problem: we already have big plans with Paul and Brian, which means I am already spending money on my birthday. I don't know that I can really justify spending more money on myself. Don't get me wrong, I love having money spent on me, just not from my bank account. Decisions, decisions...
Around the house...my curtains arrived and I've been wondering for a week if they can be ironed. My sister-in-law took the time to look at the tag and let me know that I need to get them dry cleaned. I need to get an iron rod, then find someone to install them because we don't do things like that around here.
From the kitchen...I found some great recipes to try for the summer, and I'm excited about having new food. I have to stick with a menu or we just don't eat well. I had the best strawberries today. Now if only I could buy a good watermelon. I have taken so many back to the stores because they sucked. Yes, I am one of those women.
One of my favorite things...my boys running around and having a blast. Most days they are so much fun. I can just see their faces at the fireworks right now. Our neighbor gave them glow sticks for tonight and they were so excited about them. Even Squirt.
I am grateful for...family, bbq's, summer fruit, friends that listen when I'm manic and a clean house
Towards Rhythm and Beauty...I love the season our family is in right now. I feel a real happiness in our life these days and am not looking forward to any changes.
A few plans for the week...it's time to plan for the birthday boys. We have three birthdays to celebrate this week!
A picture thought I am sharing...